Thursday, July 10, 2014

Creativity.

I am curious how many people feel that their creativity is stifled by patterns of self-critisism? Do you experience creativity in your day to day- and in what unique ways? If you aren't experiencing much creativity, how do you imagine your life would change if you were stepping into that realm more often? What different ways do you get creative now and how would you like to experience new creative endeavors. How important is creativity for our inner expansion?

For me- I feel I am an extremely creative person but most of my creative energy lies dormant after years of being too self-critical. Writing is one way that I allow myself to be creative mostly because I feel more in control. I do love painting but don't do it often enough to consider it a true outlet. I am a pretty damn good vocalist but have always felt extremely vulnerable when sharing that gift- like people see to much of me when I open my mouth to sing- but on my own it is one of my favorite things. Communication is creative for me and so is working in the healing arts. Helping people to move stagnant energy and sharing different modalities to transform life. I would love to expand my creativity! I see it as a really therapeutic and worthwhile investment- good for the soul, explorative, fun and relaxing. Is expressing my desire for more creativity creative in itself? Not sure...

Day 1 of Gratitude Prayers


DAY 1 of Gratitude Prayers- I am so happy and grateful for deep restorative sleep, magical dreams and waking up to the birds chirping. A morning breeze kissing my cheek. A new day of self-discovery. Little Jackson sleeping at my feet in a pile of blankets.

I am literally camping in my parents backyard at the moment. As my parents get the house ready to sell- packing, cleaning and letting go of old vibrations- it doesn't seem real that soon this won't be our home anymore. This is the house I grew up in my whole life. I have so many memories of being a child playing in this backyard which my father turned into a secret garden jungle for us. Some of my best memories were in this backyard which now seems so much smaller. We would ignite our imaginations and tap into the fairy realms in this yard. I would lay around in the hay and watch the clouds float across the sky. He would garden and play the music really loud, we would pick cherry tomatoes, blackberries, swing in the hammock. Thats the way I want to live my life- in the sunshine, cultivating something beautiful, free to imagine and daydream all we want. I am grateful for the memories :)

Saturday, June 28, 2014

IN Service

As of lately most of my focus has turned towards stepping into my role as a healer and teacher. I have hidden behind Dan for quite some time now and it really feels good to step into my own gifts and insights when it comes to healing the body, mind, and heart. It has served me so well to watch Dan be able to impact so many lives and hear from those who are getting healthy and are so grateful. I have made wonderful connections in the past few years being with Dan and it has brought me a lot more confidence when I see how much I have learned about holistic health and how I truly can help someone everyday. When I let go of all my fears and insecurities and just focus on the people who need guidance and direction I find myself loving more and more being able to help others and the notion of being able to support myself while doing it. The last few years I have helped many people mostly behind the scenes. I dabbled with youtube videos and sharing these blogs, but most of the one on one guidance happened behind the scenes naturally. Right now I am working on creating a website and organizing my services. It can be kind of scary building a business and learning how to  do it in a way that is going to be effective and successful. SO, if you are reading this...(that is awesome!) Especially since my life has been all over the place and consistent blogging has never been easy for me. (yet I still really enjoy it.) But also keep your eyes peeled for a new website from me in the future. I am somewhat of a perfectionist so I am gonna try and just get it up without being too obsessive compulsive. eek! Sending out so much love and deep appreciation to anyone out there who happens to be reading this :D

Tuesday, May 6, 2014

I Am Abundance


I Am. Certainly the most powerful words in our vocabulary.

The other day I was driving back to the house with Dan after picking up my broken Apple computer. I was feeling kinda down, thinking of my life... and out of my mouth blurted, "I need to get a job."

I thought to myself...ugh, that didn't feel good at all. I quickly tried to correct the wording and out came; "I need to make money."

Mmmm, No that's not it either....

Then it was- I need to create abundance!

Then it was- I am creating abundance!

Then it was- "I am very abundant now!"

And last but not least... "I AM ABUNDANCE."


Let me just say I was having a low day. I was feeling like shit to be honest. All sorts of confused about my purpose and path. I was PMS'ing and every thought that was going through my mind was reinforcing this vibration.

I felt like I was in a headlock by my negative, victim mentality. It was all selfish, fearful, and negative thinking. And the moment I heard myself say "I need to get a job" my higher self woke up and thought.....Wait. I NEVER say things like that. Not that wording and certainly not with that type of feeling behind it. That's something my old self would say! As soon as I recognized that I was losing in a vibrational battle I thought-

What can I do to shift myself to a higher more loving place right now?

"I am abundance"
"I am Abundance"
"I am Abundance" .... I said this over and over and then expanded it.

It looked and *felt* something like this:

I am Peace
I am Love
I am Grace
I am Joy
I am Laughter
I am Prosperity
I am Creativity
I am Play
I am Courage
I am Strength
I am Light
I am Perfection
I am Forgiveness
I am Wisdom
I am Capable
I am Deserving
I am Freedom
I am Abundance
I am Heart
I am Pure Energy
I am Pure Potential
I am Infinite
I am Limitless
I am Divinity
I am Goddess
I am Universe
I am Love
I am Truth
I am All


Words are powerful. If you find yourself in lowly place and you aren't making the situation better with loving and positive thinking- do your best to stop that negative train of thought. Take some deep breaths and do this I AM practice. I promise you will feel your spirit rise and you will be a completely different person then the person just before you began.






Monday, May 5, 2014

Back From the Dead...

I'm not sure if that title is a fitting description of my absence from blogging. I have been very much full of life and adventure :) But I have found myself going through such intense changes personally that I am often doing my very best just to process the movement of energy in my life so that I can integrate it all, the last thing on my mind is "How am I gonna explain this in my blog?" When I take the long breaks from sharing- that's when I probably have the best content.  but I am just too busy living it, being it...to take time away to share it. Or maybe I just need to learn a little more dedication :D

This journey I am on is such a beautiful path. I would never trade my life for anyone else's reality. Being able to witness my own evolution, my own flowering as a being, is so precious. Even with the ups and downs and harder lessons- I am in deep appreciation and gratitude for it all. There's just no losing in life! Every situation that comes your way is an opportunity for expansion of spirit. The most tumultuous and trying situations creates avenue for the greatest evolution and transformation. Yeah, sometimes it's hard to let go, sometimes it's hard to forgive. But the deeper your forgiveness, the deeper your love. The more you let go- the more space you create for the new.

Life truly is a matter of perspective. And deeply realizing this gives us such great power to create a more loving world. It may be your personal world- but whose to say that the subjective world that you live in isn't the one that matters the very most?